Yesterday was the first day I did not have a single moment of feeling depressed in a full 24 hours. For those who don't know, I have been battling depression for 10+ years. Some days are great others are terrible but overall I'm finally making the proper strides to bettering my mental health.
Well yesterday was one of the best days I had in a long time. I woke up at like 12:30 due to the partying I did the night before. I walked to the bathroom to get get my morning started and I remember I took off my dread sock (It's like and Durag but for locs) and ran my fingers through my hair. As I looked in the mirror all I could think was “Damn, I'm handsome as fuck” and I was truly feeling myself while looking in the mirror.
I knew I didn't want to stay home. I was also hungry but my funds were telling me I need something close since I am over my limit of car service rides I give myself each week. So I knew it had to be walking distance. I proceeded to walk to the pizza place about 3 blocks away. This was my first time going there but I figured why not. I ordered 2 slices and a Blue Moon (which is like 1 of 3 beers I actually drink). I turned on Mack Wild’s new project “AfterHours” and vibed out as I ate and of course scrolled through social media. It was nice to be out in public, just on my own. No struggling to hold a conversation or anything.
After I finished eating, I planned on walking to the coffee shop across from the pizza place and just chill and work on a few work related projects as well as some stuff I had put on the back burner. So I walked in, ordered a tea (Currently quitting coffee) and found a seat. I spent about 90 minutes in that seat but then became uncomfortable. As I stretched, a guy that was sitting in this HUGE and comfy looking chair was packing up to leave. Once he cleared his space I jumped at the chance to move into that seat. It was probably one of the most comfortable chairs I had ever placed my butt in. I sunk into the chair, got extremely comfortable and continued to do my work. I must of sat in their chair for another 3 hours in such a relaxed state. I almost fell asleep.
Around 6ish I received a text from my roommate informing me that he will be leaving tonight for work, meaning I would get the entire house to myself! I made it back home right before he left, we chatted for a couple of minutes and then he took off. I cooked dinner (Grilled chicken, brown rice and tomato soup) and watch “Once Upon a Time” as I washed my last batch of clothes. It was nice having peace and quiet.
Once dinner was done, it was time to pack for the upcoming week. I always dread packing my carry on for my next week of traveling but it had to be done. So I packed my bag, cleaned up my room and was in bed by midnight to catch a few hours of sleep before my 7:30 AM flight. I pretty. I have fell asleep instantly with a smile on my face and actually dreamt even within those 4-5 hours which never really happens. And who would of thought...this all happened because I woke up, looked in the mirror, and affirmed myself.