So I got fired...
From my co-host/producer job on The Panel ATL, a podcast where a group of people in Atlanta express their opinion on Love, Dating and Current Events. This show has shown me so much about myself as well as others and I met an amazing group of people from all walks of life. I felt like this show was my baby, especially after getting promoted to producer. I did any and everything I could to make sure that this show would grow and grow and grow. Until that sad but eye opening day happened. The creator of the show and myself got into this huge argument of a topic which resulted in bad blood between us which resulted in me getting kicked off the show. It hurt some much, it was like me and my imaginary baby momma got into a fight, took the kid and told me I would never see him again. My blood was literally boiling for days about this. Like I was ready to fight the creator of the show ON SITE. I kept saying “If I ever saw him in public I would automatically swing. You took something I loved deeply away from me. But then I noticed something…
I was energized. I have not been this energized in years. It was that fire, ya know. That fire when someone is hungry for success. I have been pretty much doing great at most things in life and this was something that I was told, “Nah Nigga, slow your roll”. I get it. I Kanye’d the situation lmao. I let my mouth get in the way of the opportunity, but that also made me realized, maybe you couldn't be contained. You are a Wakandian Gemini who understands the power or duality and that sometime being in that box aint working. Plus, over the time of my time on the show, I matured and grew and became wiser and more observant. It's so interesting because we had a convo about the “Where do we see ourselves on the show?” and I gave some bullshit answer saying “I see myself just as a producer” not really hosting anymore...What I truly felt was that I knew my time was limited on the show. I went in to the show thinking that honestly, my life is not the norm so therefore once things becomes the norm I usually bounce. I'm honestly shocked I have had this blog for this long. My geminian sides get bored very easily so I move on to other things with great ease, but back to the story. I remember sitting in that room lying to the creator and myself that this was enough and it was not. I wanted something of my own, but i did not know how to even start things now a days. This experience has shown me that i just need to start the shit I want to do and let the true loves and successes present itself. I realized that I have the resources and creativity to start my shit, but I needed the fearlessness and the motivation.
I began getting more ideas and more ideas and my creative juices just starting flowing and all these ideas just came to me and what I would do with them. I am so excited that a lot of it is coming together. So I was fired, but this is more like a Phoenix situation. I was burned and died, but now I am coming up...Stay tuned for more.